but i did consume lemonade and water :l
im so frustrated. my hips are starting to show a LOT. im so unhappy with myself. i miss how was this summer. i was beautiful. and now, im not. i want to cry constantly. but i dont. i cant have anyone know how bad i hurt inside. im so unhappy. i dont even know what happened.
I stuck to my plan. I only ate once, and it was only 400cal.
Im going to do 550 crunches before I go to sleep and stretch everything out.
I did NOT purge today. Im proud of myself.
Tomorrow, Ill eat less.
I purged. I ate way too much today. Cake, burrito. :/ ugh.
Ill feel better in the morning.
I hate tricking you into thinking I’m better than I was before. It seemingly becomes worse and worse. Please love me still…
I’ve been battling bulimia for the past 9 years. I tried to stop, and I did for almost 2 years, but I just don’t really want to. Its not because I hate myself, because I don’t. But because I need to be in control.
On this blog, I’ll let you know my daily progress, how I feel. So its pretty much an online diary.
Judge if you’d like, it will not change a thing.
Weight: 125
Goal: 108
I’m eating once a day, nothing more than 350 calories. AZ Iced Teas will also count as caloric intake.
No sugar whatsoever.
DO NOT EAT. DO NOT GIVE UP.
